Vertigo

Okay.

These first few posts are kind of introductory. Let me catch you up to speed:

I found this blog online that I started five years ago, and so much has changed I can't believe I am the same person. I was nineteen, going to school, working in a library, dating a domineering loser, gushing over the ex I left him for, hating his new girlfriend, and complaining the entire time. In the first post - which is mostly all emo crap, surprise, surprise - I explain that I currently had toothbrushes at three different houses, am a people pleaser, and needed a place to vent my secrets.

Secrets no more! Here they are!


2004-10-21 03:57:12

vertigo


My boyfriend just called me. He was playing hookie from work
and wanted to know if I wanted to do the same. As much as
I hate my lousy job there was no way I could have called
in. Everything I say and do is held against me in a court
of librarians.

I work in a library. yep that's right, a smelly government
funded library. So I make like, nothing. I'm looking for
a new job, but apparently I am nobody anyone wants to hire.

Every good thing I do is over looked and all the credit
goes to someone else. He's actually getting promoted.
You know what? I don't want to get into it right now. I'll
get too angry.

Truth is I was late for work today. My cousin left me a
note saying that while he was in Jamaica, I could sleep in
his room instead of the computer/dog room. (My aunt's house
is one of the places i live at right now. It's closer to
school.) He failed to tell me that his alarm clock didn't
work! I was an hour and a half late. Well, I guess you
have to count in the time that I got pulled over and was
cutting my way out of a ticket.

I told by boyfriend all this and it just went in one ear
and out the other like it always does. At least it seems.
He says he's listening.

We did end up seeing each other tonight.(seeing as how I am
going away tomorrow and won't be back until sunday.) But
he spent most of the night trying to convince me to dye my
hair blonde.



*****flash forward*****

Don played hookie from work a lot. And got fired A LOT. I thank him for the sturdy work ethic I have now.

And don't ask me about the title. I had a weird obsession with U2 at that age. I thought it was what mature people listened too. "If you don't love just one lyric from each song, you have no soul..." I just to tell people. What a dork.