Screw You Don!

2004-11-13 17:54:35

Screw You Don!


So, the swelling did go down a bit. It doesn't really hurt
anymore but there is this lumping thing underneath my
tights. Ballet tights don't hide anything.

On another subject, I am going to ditch Don again tonight. I'll tell him that my aunt has tickets to a play,
or he'll think i'm still sick or something. I hate lying,
but I just can't bear the thought of another night sitting
around watching T.V. Sometimes that is just fine. I get so
board! I sit there thinking about all the things I could
be doing, (or worse, what Danielle and Mr.Wonderful are
doing)and I get so angry. And then Don will ask, "what's
worng?" and of coarse I can't tell him. Dosen't he
understand that I am with him in my own spare time? He
doesn't even come to pick me up like a real gentlemen
should.

There is no telling what will happen at Jessi's tonight.
Sometimes we have really eventful nights where we go out
just looking for things to jump off of. Other times, we
will go out to buy yarn and bake banana bread. But when
I'm with her I always have a good time.

So tonight, Screw you Don!

More likely I will go over there and use her sewing kit to
stich up some new ribbons on my pointe shoes. But maybe
after that we will go bowling or something. Who knows.


*****flash forward*****

One of the biggest mysteries I'm trying to solve while doing this is why did I spend so much time with someone I was so bored with? Maybe I thought it was better to be bored with my boyfriend rather than be bored at home. But that's just a theory. Back then I was a much more social person and more adventurous than Don. Not to mention ambitious.

I can't say I'm proud of lying to him so much.